are you capable of more?

I was.

how did i do this?

When I was little, I looked around and didn't see women doing the things or living the life I wanted. I read boy's adventure books and wanted to save the world (knew I had a mission that would make the world a better place), but all of the women in my extended family were stay at home moms with multiple children and didn't play a sport.

Instead of the pre-determined option, I chose to find (strike out on) my own route in life changed because I had one life and I knew the person I wanted to be and could be. So I ran. And planned to support myself so I was independent. Even though it made me weird.

I was onto the answer (something) But I was more scared of settling than being weird. It got me in the right direction but fear was driving me.